I'm not present last days for prety much all people who are important for me. Just a hard time/days/week. Nothing personal. :) Was able to make it to only 2 meetings this week. the second one i made only because I promised to speak there). I try to think of steps wisdom and follow it and etc.. Although I'm still involved in a very difficult negotiations, with lazy and extremely manipulative people. My expectations also might be too high:) i know it and I don't know it:) Aside of it i feel very lonely and not needed/ not wanted as a real person and women. The princess in me is crying:) But getting texts from SF aa-people, helps a lot:)